MS Weekly

Thank You for Walking Out of My Life, Truly It’s A Blessing

This last week has been an eye opener for me. I’ve seen one of the most important people in my life go and I’ve been blessed to see many other people walk into my life in just one short week.

Being put down by someone you care for and you’ve known for years is a tough thing to go through.  I however know that I am truly the BLESSED one going through this experience.  I will be the one coming out on TOP.  I deserve SO much in this life and I am NOT willing to ever settle AGAIN for someone less than what I deserve.  I deserve to be respected and NOT lied to for weeks on end.  A relationship is built on TRUST.  Without trust there is no faithfulness.  I believe I was an amazing person in this persons life and I know I was.  I was one of the best things that could have ever happened to them.  I was patient, caring, and tried my best to better that person. There is no bettering a person if they don’t want it themselves. You have to want something yourself to ever succeed in life to find a good job or good assignment happy

The one thing that hurts the most is to know the person you cared for who loved you at once didn’t really care for you in the last couple of months you spent with them. Lying to someone is never the answer. Being honest from the start is what saves the person you hurt from more heart ache and pain. The worst things is that 2  STRANGERS could walk into that person’s life and they become that person’s world before you are even out of the relationship. Those 2 strangers are the ones replacing the spot where you once stood. Those new people who are now in your life have the joy of getting to deal with all the of the lies, and disrespect that you once gave me. Things maybe all great now but in time your true colors will come out and so will theirs.

People may think I am being disrespectful right now but this is me coping. I don’t deserve someone talking non sense about me when I all I did was ever be an amazing friend who was their for you and supported you.  I am not the one in the wrong.  I have been a mature adult and I have been holding my head when there are times where I could sink in a whole for days.  For two strangers to talk badly about me who don’t even know me and post pictures to make  me jealous shows what kind of character they have. Even more than ever your true colors are coming out because you have provoked them to do these things.
After a long friendship like we had you think that out of the goodness of your heart you could be respect but NO!
I however am not mad a you, I am sorry for goodbye I am sorry that you feel you need to stoop to that level.  I thought I knew who you were but I didn’t. You were living a life that was a lie. You lied to yourself, you lied to me, you lied to your PARENTS  and still are lying to them.  I however do not have to deal with this lying ever again.  I have gained a whole new perspective on life.

  • I have gained strength in myself.
  • I have gained more strengthen in my relationship with GOD.
  • I have built relationships with people who I never would have if  I was never set free from this friendship.
  • I now know that I deserve someone who is respectful, kind, caring, HONEST and not a CHEATER!
  • I’ve gained more respect for myself.
  • The biggest lesson I have learned is that to be happy in life you have to be happy with your self!

I thanks to you am now happier with in a matter of a short time without you in my life. You were keeping me from my happiness and I am so relieved to not have a negative person holding me back, and me giving up opportunities because of someone else.

One of the biggest things I realize is that the person I cared for was going know where with their life. They are just going through the motions and settling for an easy life. Things in life that are worth working for take time and effort. You can’t be a lazy person and expect to have the world at your hands.

So through this all I want to thank this person for opening my eyes up. Thank you for opening my eyes up and seeing the real person that you are and not the person who I thought you were. I wish you the best and I wish you a life full of happiness but in order for you to achieve that you have to work on end

Through this hard time I have turned to my support system. I have a family who understand me and who I can tell the TRUTH to.  Some may not understand the relationship that I have with my parents but you don’t need to. My parents and I’s relationship is built off of a strong foundation. We are an honest and loving family. We don’t build relationships with one another or any one for a matter of fact off of lies. For some families I truly feel sorry that they aren’t happy. I hope for those families that one day they can find piece of mind. My parents are proud of who I am and the women I am becoming. I can truly say that I know I am a good person. I don’t bring others down just for the fun of it.  I care for others deeply, I’m respectful, and most of all trustworthy.  I look forward to my future and I am now ready to move on with my life and to move on to bigger and better things.


.Happiness is key to life.




Branding Yourself

As some of you may know this summer I am taking an online class. The class that I am taking is all about social media for public relations. This week’s assignment was to blog about your personal online brand.

The first thing that I initially did was Google myself. I wasn’t shocked by what I found because I have always been very aware about what I post on the Internet. Having a positive self-image/brand on the web is very important aspect to me. Screen Shot 2014-08-03 at 8.54.53 PMWhen I googled my name I looked at each result that came up with me in it. I looked everywhere from my twitter, WordPress, LinkedIn to my MySpace page. Nothing negative really stood out to me.

What I learned from my search is that I have a positive brand on the web. The themes that I noticed is that all my pictures were pretty much the same on each social media account. So I am consistent with that. I read this blog by Jon Negroni and he stated the following about branding yourself online, “ Once you know exactly what you want your personal brand to be, it’s time to implement it across all of your channels.” ( I believe that what Jon said is something I do very well across all social media accounts. I don’t post inappropriate pictures or anything of that nature. The big theme that stood out to me is that I do not use vulgar language at all on social media. Since I first started using social media it has been instilled in me to be appropriate online because one-day just one post, comment or photo could cost you your dream job. In the book, The New Rules of Marketing & PR by David Scott he stated, “Think like a publisher by understanding your audience.” The one thing when I make post on social media sites is that I think about whom my followers are and what their reason for following me or liking my page is. I want to post about things that they care about or what they want to know about me. Online I present myself in a mature and respectful manner. The one change that I would like to change is deleting my vines. It’s not because they are inappropriate but because they aren’t good quality videos and I know that I could do much better work than what I did. IF someone were to search me on the web I believe they would get an accurate representation of me. I think that someone would see that I am a respectful person and respect myself. I think the one thing that someone may not see about me on the web is that I am very creative. That’s one thing that I need to work on displaying on social media outlets. This assignment has made me want to get my name out more on the web in a professional manner.

One thing I have come up with is my own brand statement. On social media outlets it always ask you to describe your self in a few short sentences so developing my own brand statement will be helpful. In the future I hope to use my brand statement on my social media accounts. My brand statement that I have come up with describes whom I am and what I want to do as a profession. My brand statement is, Mateja Sears, a public relations enthusiast who enjoys speaking on behalf of her clients and branding their company. The work I do helps companies get the word out about a clients products and developing relationships between clients and their publics. The work that I do brings me much joy and happiness because I can see first had how clients and the public develop a positive relationship with one another.

Developing a new online personal brand I believe will affect the chances of me getting a job when I graduate. I think that having a positive image on the web makes me a stand out candidate when it comes to be a potential employee. A potential employer will not have to worry about me posting any negative or inappropriate material online.

As I worked on this assignment the one thing that I could implement the most into my life is by participating in social media on regular basis. I do this to a certain extent but the one thing that I need to work on is making post on a more schedule basis. On page 276 Scott stats, “But in all cases, success comes from engaging in the activity regularly.” I will take this into much consideration and implement it into my life. I want to begin making regular blog post and sharing my thoughts.


On Saturday April 26 my family and I had to put down our yellow lab named ru Ruger was only three years old and his death was very unexpected.  The reason why Ruger needed to be put down was because he had what is known as bloat. Bloat is when the dogs stomach flips on them.  His small intestines ended up being in his chest and he also had a foreign object in his stomach.  My family and I loved Ruger very much.  We were willing to do anything to save his life.  Ruger was going to need two surgeries to save his life and these surgeries were critical as well as expensive.  The surgeries combined together and the after care would have cost approximately $7,000.  I begged my parents to pay that much to go ahead with the surgery but they told me they had to draw the line somewhere.  I understand the decision they made and I know it was a hard decision for them to make. Even if we would have went through with the surgeries Ruger was in very critical condition and he could have possibly passed away during the surgeries.  Ruger would have been in a lot of pain during recovery as well so now as much as I miss my dog I believe that my family and I made the best decision for our dog.

Dealing with the death of Ruger is being taken very hard in my family.  We each had such a special connection with him and he left us with the greatest memories. Everywhere in my house has a special memory with Ruger.  Ruger would always like to open the shower door when I was showering and drink the water.  It was always so funny when I got out of the shower because his face was all wet.  Even after I showered when I put lotion on he would like to lick the lotion off of my leg.  Writing about it now even makes me chuckle.

Ruger was a very silly dog and loved to show his affection to my family and I.  When ever someone came home he would bark like someone was breaking into the house. ruger hands Once he realized it was one of us he would lay his ears back and wiggle.  It was the cutest thing to see and I can picture it now.  I wish I had a video of him wiggling but I have the memory and that is what counts.  Another thing Ruger loved besides his family were his treats.  When ever you said the word treat he would perk up and get excited and meet you at the hall closet to get his treat.

Ruger had a great personality.  One thing my family and I would always say to him is, why the long face Ruger?  Ruger would sit like he was huntched over some times and stick his leg out real far.  We always said he looked like Igor from Winnie the Pooh when he sat like that.

Ruger as a puppy was a chubby little boy.  The first time I ever held him he grunted like a pig.  He constantly did that when we held him and he did that until he got use to us.  He came around real soon and he really loved us. Throughout Rugers life he was always very affectionate.  One of the first days that we had Ruger as a puppy he would hold his hand out and want to shake your hand.  Holding Rugers hand was something I did with him on a daily basis.  He would always just hold his paw out and he assumed you would just pick his paw up.

Loosing Ruger so suddenly was one of the hardest things I have had to go through this past year. Ruger was a part of my family and he always will be.  My family and I miss him dearly and we talk about him everyday.  Each of us cherish all the memories we have created with Ruger.  My wish for Ruger is that he is in peace and that he understands why we had to make the decision we did.